14/10/10

Abandoned this page for so long, feels alil awkward to update even to start a sentence..sigh! Today is not a good day. Apart of the hot weather, nothing seems right to do. Bored. At home for the whole day- sleeping, eating, rotting and at last decided to go for a jog. Just for 3 laps around the field and now im updating this blog. IM BORED to death. What do i really expect in life actually ? i know ive been complaining alot lately be it to the people around me or just in me. Damn it. i dont like this me. At least you need to share something happy once in awhile for people to be comfortable around you right? IF you keep developing the negative thoughts and influencing people, they might get sick with you. i know. i know this very well. Maybe i really need to start thinking of something happy to share out. But my life is just dull. How can i make it more colourful? I feel kinda jobless days that without class. First of all, i stopped my job or maybe i was forced to stop it, no choice, i was kicked out from the field with a red card just like a footballer. But one thing differs, i never been given warning just like they do with yellow card in the first place. Lets learn about politic in the workplace. Enough said of that.

That explains why i always rot at home lately. And i cant always go out with my b too right ? I always reluctant to go out mostly because of my mum. she will be staying at home alone most of the time. you get my point already, i supposed. Ive alot of worries in me.. what can i do after this ? what should i do after my degree? im growing older day by day and this frightens me. My beard for example is growing wild and i can feel my face isnt glowing like a small child anymore. this shows some sign of the ageing part and i need to do something great before turning old completely. i need to start searching for my dreams from today onwards :) 3 months time i will be turning 22. omg scary !!