Monday, May 31, 2010

Last day

So, as stated today will be the last day of outing with her for the coming month. Its kinda sad and i was unhappy to let her go. You know when i have her company it feels right, everything like so usual and time passes by so quickly, dont even realise her presence but when the time is up, i can feel that i aint happy anymore. She moving out, from my car and walked slowly towards the station, i feel sad. I just want you to know i enjoyed ur company and it means more to me when i see you growing up, sweetheart! Happy that you found yourself a better offer today! Just wanted you to know, i love you more. Though at times i didnt tell it to you cuz i prefer showing. These few weeks i was not in a good condition so as you thought i wasnt that into you anymore. You were wrong. Its just that my mind was disturbed. Not you. Never will.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Mixed of feelings

Had a day out with my baby today.Not for shopping not for cinema. Its our day to find job. While i went for interview in KLCC Himalaya healthcare company, she went to seek for jobs in sg wang and of course, times square. She managed to find afew. But no answers from them yet. Can see that she has been troubled by college stuff and family issues. But i guessed there's something more behind the sadness and the pair of restless eyes. Wish that i could be there to lighten her burdens and i always want to show her that i can be there no matter in what kinda situations. Im glad she really went and looked for job, at least i know she's a grown up person, not like the type i first judged about her. She has been more mature and independent now. Im happy too when she accompanied me to the outlet for interview. she's there for me :) and am proud i was there with her too. Besides, "sorry to you baby, you have dentistry appointment on tuesday but that will be my first day working. Cant accompany you again. :( but no worries after this i will and am sure we can have more time together.

My second job in life which is Himalaya health care product company will be a tough one, i guess. It requires us to speak more, be aggresive on sales because the commision is based on the sales mentioned. And i dont have much speaking skill besides for the laziness to go attract for customers. BUT, thats what im gonna learn. My motto of knowing alil but alot that kept me going all these while to try out something i fear most but must be overcomed. Though the basic is only 1k, i hope to hit the salary of 1.5k.. So that i will have extra cash to support my baby on her dream phone and of course, for everyday out after that. You know, i love my baby so much. and i always wanna see her happy. Cant wait to go on with my degree programme. i can feel the adrenaline rush in me to fit inside the society! Updates on my life soon. Till then, see ya. Peace out.